Masculine, Feminine, and Serendipitous Energy

*Please note that these are just ongoing thoughts. Please take all of this with a grain of salt, as ideas tend to change.

In the past year, I often explored what masculine and feminine mean when stripped of the generalized terms often seen on social media. To proceed with this discussion, I need to give a quick rundown of what I mean by these terms.

Masculine Energy:

The reality we see before us. This is the movement of a hand, the setting of a table, the physical building of a house. You can interact with this reality through the five senses. We use what we sense as a catalyst to reflect on and shape our conscious and unconsious world, and our hidden plane (a term I am working on called Ündwell, a plane in which a slip between the conscious and unconscious Being occurs, almost like an accident or surprise). Masculine energy is our stable, conscious baseline energy, allowing us to interact with the world at all.

Feminine Energy:

A moving structure that is the void containing what is. It looks like nothing because what is in this void is everything specific to a given Being. As Daniel Garner from O.G. Rose would put it, this is more of a logic of “apprehension” in a collection of accumulated whys and can seem “apathetic.” Here, all possibilities, feelings, and data exist. It is a collected abundance that is far too hidden to others and can seem much too wild and vast to a particular Being to explore themselves. While energy solidifies in the masculine conscious reality, the feminine mysterious energy holds dormant expansion, a pre-articulation waiting for us to dive deep and seek it.

*It is important always to note that when I use the terms masculine and feminine, I do not mean the typical definitions we find on social media. I do not mean man vs. woman. These two types of energy live within everyone, and they work together like a dance. (I do believe that there is a third type of energy that happens when the two meet, but that will be explored later.)

Baseline energy and mysterious energy are discussed in O.G. Rose’s conversation, Episode 16: Creating Energy and Anewing vs Doing Something New.

I want you to imagine you’re at a carnival, standing in front of a house of mirrors. You look down at your hands, your arms, your legs. It is all there. You’re conscious of it. You can smell the popcorn from a nearby stand and hear children laughing. You look at yourself in the mirror outside the attraction. You only see one version of yourself.

You step inside the house of mirrors. All of a sudden, it’s quiet. You can’t hear the laughter outside or smell the popcorn. It’s just you and a bunch of mirrors reflecting all different angles. It seems like it never ends. Where is the exit? Who knows! You’re searching and searching, afraid you are closer to getting lost, but you stay. You take a breath, and when you look up, you see an angle of yourself you’ve never seen before. There’s a freckle on your ear! It was always there, you just couldn’t see it. After you make that realization, all of a sudden, you’re back outside the house of mirrors, looking at yourself in only one mirror, like before. But this time, you see the freckle, a part of yourself you would have never noticed if you didn’t make that journey.

Over the past year, I’ve employed this journey into the feminine and worked to pull out new patterns, ideas, and art into the masculine reality. I’ve learned that going into that feminine void is a combination of things: conscious forgetting of ourselves, like setting out to run or to write, and the habit soon becomes forgotten. I understood this concept from Heidegger, when he discusses hammering a hammer. We consciously know we’re hammering, running, writing, and then at some point we forget, which would be the point from my example of going into the house of mirrors, the subconscious feminine.

I asked myself where we go when we forget ourselves, but I’m not sure that’s the right question now. I think the question I should have been asking is, at what moment, or what intensity, does masculine and feminine energy meet to apprehend something, to create something, a realization that there was a freckle on our ear all along.

I wonder, is there a third energy? One that is serendipitous, a miracle perhaps. Think of the Trinity—Father as the masculine. The Holy Spirit is the feminine, and the Son is the miracle created. How did he get to be there? Well, it just seems that he was apprehended perfectly somehow.

I think of writing and poetry. Where do the stories and words strung together come from? We write, and they just seem to appear. It’s like an ocean in a drop of water. The other day, I ran 6.5 miles without stopping, and it felt like I wasn’t even conscious of it. It just happened, and I was done. It seems like it comes from nothing. Could this be because once the two energies meet in intensity and the serendipitous energy is apprehended, that energy is already thrown into the masculine again to be reflected upon? All we have are tiny pieces of a whole, and what is whole, what beholds the world, is this nothingness.

I say nothing, but this energy is not nothing; rather, it seems to be a perfect match. But it looks like an accident or surprise because there is no way we can logically get there, whether through the logic of the feminine or the masculine. It’s the meeting of both, but I doubt we can fully comprehend it yet.

I believe I unknowingly started applying this serendipitous energy in my everyday life. For example, I drop in just to say hello to friends and family, not because I have to, but because there is a sort of warm surprise to it. It’s difficult to explain; what might be better is the letters I write. No one knows when they’re coming or what I will write. I seem to get a feeling that I should write, and when I do, I sit down and write whatever comes to mind. When I sit back and read it over, I sometimes wonder, well, where did that sentence come from? Then I put it in an envelope, seal it, and send it off.

It was then that it occurred to me that perhaps we, as our whole Being, are this third energy. Perhaps serendipity lies in all of us, and it is in the small creations, gestures, “lucky” moments that we interact with others that keep the world turning and turning and turning. We create surprises for each other, simply by surprising ourselves.